Liberal Cowboy

I believe that making good decisions is part of being successful. But being true to yourself is more important.

Tommorow marks the beginning of making tough decisions. Hopefully one that will lead me down a good path. One that will make a difference in my life. So far this holiday season has brought a lot of separation between me and friends, and who i need to be.

But i feel momentum in building new friendships, and building a new life for who i want to be. not just words on page but a true inspiration to others.

i may be a true mystery to myself. and to others. that is way it goes. i am a mystery to myself too.

do you ever have dreams you can’t reach because you can’t stand up enough to reach them.

do you ever have places you can’t go because people say that you can’t

do you ever have loves you can’t love because they won’t let you.

do you ever have pieces of you running around out there because they won’t come back.

i do.

have you ever been in love with a mystery? have you ever been in love with someone who could never love you back?

have you ever wished for a moment you could strip away the distractions, strip away all the differences, all the things that separate the two of us from walking hand in hand.

i used to walk down nicodemus trail late at night and wish to be together but knowing all along that we speak different languages, have different heartbeats, come from different worlds, i knew this and yet i stayed there waiting, hoping that something would change your mind. that you would hold my hand and tell me to take you away from there. away from nicodemus trail.

alas you never did, but i left that trail and here i am. all alone in a place as foreign as Paris. what are you doing? who will love you more than me? probably no one. but then again. maybe there is someone out there who will love me as much as i used to love you.

in the end you will never know because i never invited you out loud, and the only moment i will cherish is the one when we road our bicycles along the road that evening as the sun went down.

that i will never forget.

Do you ever wonder why there are people who are truly alive and God decides to take them away from us, and then there are people who are the walking dead, and dying more every day and yet they remain unwanted?

 if anything life has taught me you have to be who you are. live life to the fullest even if you are dying inside because its better to be the walking dead than to not be living anymore.

 Yet those who have gone on ahead rest in peace on the other side.

do you ever talk to someone and it brings back a flood of memories. some painful some good. either way it puts you in a different place than you were a few minutes before?

that’s tonight. i sit here in front of this f*ing screen wondering what could have been, and what will come. Do you ever wonder if the road you have traveled down is the right one?

 how will you know until you get to where you belong?

 is intelligent design really stupid, or have i bought into something i shouldn’t believe.

 either way. life is as life is. and happiness is derived from the peace we create within our hearts. that’s the story of tonight. that’s the story of tommorow and the next day and forever. goodnight.

life has be slowing again shortly. its just to busy. roomate problems drive me nuts. i am working on a project to network loosely a few blogs in a particular niche. it ought to be an interesting project. we will see. i have also been studying building highly effective niche content sites. boring i know. but thats me.

Do you ever have days you wake up and want to go back to sleep for a week. Today is that day. I feel shitty. OMG. What’s wrong with me. I got like 10 hours of sleep. Maybe thats the fucking problem.

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